I dont like this feeling
this feeling of uncertainty and loneliness it fucking blows
Lately
Lately things haven’t been looking too bright for me.I’m slowly ruining everything in my life,and everyday just bring another opportunity for me to mess things up for myself.I don’t know if i can take any more stress or pressure.I’m on the edge….I’m convinced this “life” isn’t good for me anymore,or for the people I’m effecting with my poor decisions.For the last month I’ve taken all my anger out on my girlfriend.I don’t mean too I i just have a lot going on,but there’s no excuse for the way i treated her.I’ve ignored her for the past month and the few times we did talk i said nothing but discouraging and hurtful things.I’m pretty sure she hates me and never wants to talk to me again which i totally understand.I treated her like shit when all she tried to do was help me and change to please me.I completely ruined the one positive thing i had going for myself,and it took me this long to realize it.My family isn’t much of a family to me,i cant remember the last time i heard something positive or encouraging from my family.But then again how can they be positive or encouraging when I’m just some piece of shit who cant finish high school or treat anybody right.I understand that I’ve fucked up everything i had going for myself in less then a year,which is why i wont be around much longer.The world would be a much better place with my bringing people down and ruining their lives.I doubt anybody will care about this but that’s fine just needed to clear my conscious,and state my wrongs before it all ended………
Im not mad jus tired of you making a big deal over little you cant let go one thing i told you and i told you trying to be honest with you but i guess that wasnt good enough you hate her now and i never here the end of it but i never say anything wen you talk about all the guys that are all over you everyday whatever im not losing my bestfriend ive lost one for you already
